These are my feelings.

What is this pain I’m feeling?

The feeling like you’re not believing?

Like you don’t belong?

So long?

So long, fare well.

I don’t even know why i fell.

No point.

It’s Valentines day,

Got nothing.

LOL, i feel crappy tonight.

I just need a bite.

Of Happinesss.

What is with you?

Avoiding me is all you can do?

You dont know how much that hurts me.

Specially when you wont tell me whats wrong with thee.

I’m so upset, clueless, and frustrated,

Like im not undated.

About your life,

About is,

About everything.

Whats making it so hard for me to know?

Why cant it be like before?

Yknow, back when we liked eachothers as friends more?

Where has our friendship gone to?

I ruined it, what a fool.

I developed feelings for you,

Feelings i never thought i could feel.

It wasnt supposed to be this way.

But i have a question,

Where are we now?

Where do we stand?

Where do you stand?

Where do i stand?

We.

What happend to we?

It’s becomed you, and i.

What do i do now?

I thought it was love.

I thought you were beautiful like a dove.

I swore it was fate,

untill you turned into everything i hate.

I never thought you’d be,

So freaking dead to me.

When i pass you,

Not a word, not a sound you do.

Its fine, your voice is annoying anyway.

Everything about you is annoying actually.

Its funny because my self-esteem’s lower.

Wishing everything just turned slower.

I’m fasting.

Wishing it lasting.

Getting skinnier.

Thinner.

Affected by all this crap going on.

All i wanted was to be perfect.

A perfect little lady.

Is that wrong?

Hey, I thought you loved me,

Because i love you.

Get all these mixed signals,

Spinning and spinning around in my head.

What should i do?

Go for it?

Push him away?

Well i decided it, i want him.

As the day turned dim,

i went for that little shit.

So confident, is this really it?

Guess what happens next?

Dissapointment.

As he brought up that girl,

My whole world twirled,

Collapsed.

Cant d anything about it.

He loves her, She loves him…I love him.

I loved him.

I still love him.

What was i thinking?

As all the emotions were sinking…

Really? what was i thinking?